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Fear..

She opened her eyes and found herself to be in the hospital room, in Chennai Apollo hospital. She was 10 years old, and didn't understand why she was there. Her parents looked at her with sympathy and felt helpless. "Why am I here? I don't like this place can we go out of here?" Her mother said," Just for few days you have to be here, some medical checkups have to performed. Nothing has happened to you." "Why cannot we come to the hospital everyday and get the check-up done instead of staying here? Also, I heard the food is not good in the hospital." "Just few days more my dear child, the doctor want to keep you under observation for some days so that's why you are here" A nurse came up to her with a big injection and a girl screamed out ,"I cannot take this injection,it so big". Her mother said,"You will not realize the pain lets the say devi mantra together". Everyday she had few tests and some injections followe...

A matter of few seconds..

It was May 2005, and I was in Bangalore doing engineering in computer science. It was a time when everybody was preparing hard to take the next big career move in form of job/higher studies. I was all engrossed in preparing for GRE. I used to go to IMS at MG road branch every weekend for taking GRE classes. Like every other weekend, I was late and hurrying to get to the class. While waiting for the traffic to stop so that I could cross the road, I noticed an old lady driving a scooty. She looked very unstable while driving. She suddenly fell on to the road just in the front of zebra crossing and the scooty was almost on top of her. Out of immediate reaction without thinking anything I ran towards her and she was crying in pain. I tried to pick up the scooty but it was just too heavy for me. I looked around myself there were people on their vehicle waiting for the green signal but none of them came forward to help. I tried with all my might to pick up the scooty. After a few seconds a m...

Identity crisis

The phone rang and on picking up the call I could hear a loud sobbing of my friend.I asked her, " What happened to you? Why are you crying is everything fine?" But, she kept on sobbing and after few seconds she replied, " I want to see you, I need to talk to you." I told her to come over, and meanwhile I was getting all anxious about her and was feeling restless. After 20 minutes, she came into my room. On seeing me she broke down and started to cry. It made me feel more nervous and scared about the whole situation. After a while she said, "Aumio.. my only 6 year old son.." I asked her out of anxiety and fear, "What happened to Aumio?Please tell me." She replied," The doctor has diagnosed that he has lost 40 percent of hearing in both the ears..I feel like a loser". "We went to an audiologist today and we got hearing aids for him,We made him wear and he immediately removed it saying I can hear why I need this.This is making me and ...

Hear me out

Hear me out - I dont need advices, but you are giving me advices. You start to tell me why I shouldn't be this,or shouldn't feel that way. You are confusing my feelings and making me more miserable;Listen! All I ask from you is listen to me. Don't talk or do anything- just hear me till the end. Listen to my mixed feelings once I am done - then, please help me to comprehend my feelings.

Just has to be felt..

Like most of my busy days when I starve for 25 th hr in a days time I came across a particular day which I still think about it off and on. I was on my way to check the mail box to see If I recieved any mails and meanwhile my mind was struggling so hard to plan out the whole schedule for a day.As I was nearing the place , I could hear the happy sounds of laughing, flirting and chattering.This hall is a busiest hall in whole of university campus as it connects to cafetaria, tunnels, mailbox room and all the residences. On reaching there, I saw a group of students full of life and enjoying a lot. All of them looked like a first /second year undergraduate students. Since,I am always curious of whats happening around me so I took a glance towards them to see whats going on. I saw a young boy with a stick in his hand with his back was towards me and he was surrounded by the group of students. I couldnt figure out what was the fun thing happening and thus, proceeded to check my mails. I had ...

No time?

Racing against time, all the time whining; no time for this, no time for that. No time,and so much to do. Walking on the path of life, acting like a stranger to the people I know, Just because I have no time for them; No time to spread a word of cheer. Bending down before a God ; No time now, to pray much. Hurrying to get back to work, As Bills would be here soon. which has to be paid on time. And in no time ageing everything; Wrinkling a young face, with old age. Looking around myself and finding nobody, Nothing can be done,as i have no more time. Here I am at the gates of heaven, Here is the God looking at me; Glancing at the book of my life, Silent he is, grim he looks. Shivering with fear,trying to remember, what wrong I have done, but I have no time now. What have you done with time I gave you, Not a single good deed you have done. Whatever you did was all for yourself. Oh, So selfish you have become You had no time to spend a moment with them, but you had all the time to be greed...

All I want

All I want is a honesty , The honesty we both deserve; Which brings in the special glow. Be not afraid of who you are to me, I in return will make the best I see; All I want is you to understand, That I do believe in you completely.

New Life

Little one on its way, getting bigger every second. Bonding us all in our lifetimes, as the two of us become three. Finally Glad you are here, With special hope you bought. The mystery of life so sacred and sweet, All precious and priceless. Life is changed, but that's just perfect; It's fun to spend glad hours each day. Taking time for all the good, That comes along with parenthood. The Innocent smile and look, So lovable and adorable. Two tiny feet; waving into the air, A miracle you are. I watched a little face sleeping, holding your small hand in mine, five little fingers on each hand, slipping and hanging onto mine. The time before you knew my voice Seemed such a long, long while. I couldn't wait for you to roll, And then to sit and clap. And now you're off and crawling, Not helpless in my lap. With the blink of eye, the time flew away, You're growing so fast, Just yesterday I could feel you move inside me. Waiting nine months to see you, And a lifetime to enjo...

Passport aka identity

I was standing in a queue at Indian Embassy in Toronto, to get my Indian passport renewed. I was almost waiting for 2 hours, but the excitement of going back and meeting my people weighed down all my waiting hours. I looked around myself and found Indians everywhere,a TV showing the advertisement where a newly wed daughter calling her dad silently from the kitchen asking how to make chole (channa)and her dad tells her the magic of Garam Masala[:p] , children getting scolded for not obeying their elders,Old people narrating their experiences to the people sitting beside them, women knitting sweaters and gossiping,and above all Indian officials shouting out the numbers of the respective people. An old person came up to me and asked me a favor to write his address on the self-addressed envelope as he had forgot his glasses.After writing for him, he told me " Sukhi raho" :D For a while all was calm and peaceful even among this shouting and chaos.Out of sudden, I could hear a scre...

The hidden power

The biggest power of all, showing endless possibilities. I, you and they have it too. Hidden deep within us,to be used. None other than Imagination. Endless thoughts , just like mud; some wobbled and wriggled; some exciting and adventurous. Desperately needing a shape, waiting to be experienced. And understood just by using, None other than imagination. Perceive the thoughts, Let it nourish, beautify them. A big freedom, Nobody can snatch it. All waiting to be used by us, None other than imagination. Come and fly among your desires, Clothes the mind with wings , and slowly raise it. And off you go to seek life you want for a moment. Look below from the eye of soul The whole world is in your hands Create it,cherish it,hate it or love it. Mould it in the way which makes you smile Its yours,nobody can suppress it.But, None other than imagination.

Hope

It is a hope I despair for, Plunged into the darkness, And spent some time there. I got no answers, No calm, no peace; And forgot how to smile, I got more scared. What held me there? A voice echoed back at me. However dark and passionate is your plight, The choice of happiness is always yours.